Quarter Life Crisis?

So, I’ve been wanting to spice up my life recently and perhaps blogging more frequently will be one of the methods I pursue.

Honestly though, I’m not even sure what a good blog includes. Perhaps I should focus on a theme or include some well-timed jokes? For now though, I’ll stick with just journaling.

The main reason why I think I need to spice up my life is my job. Like, I love what I do but… it just feels hollow? Not quite sure if that’s the right word but really, I just don’t know how some of my colleagues have done this for decades already. Truthfully there’s a lot that one can do, which is nice and all but… there’s no way there’s still something left to try in the first place.

Currently, I’m at the point where I’ve basically automated things for myself and projects just kind of move themselves along without any intervention. There’s a some-what new process that I’m still trying to master and understand exactly how every part moves and interacts with every other part but… give me a solid 6 more months and I’ll be good to go.

So, back to the issue at hand. I’m not really encouraged to put 100% of my soul into this work effort and I’m now trying to find a creative outlet so that I can keep up with the idealized version of myself. Perhaps I’ll end up wasting my time writing or perhaps I’ll end up being actually quite good at it… I’m not yet sure. And the audience (which is currently non-existent) will be the final arbiter of that.

Now, there’s one more aspect of this “quarter life crisis” that may actually be more important than the work aspect. We’ve now been in a lockdown or pseudo-lockdown (depending on where you live) for basically two years. This has made work and leisure that much more important. And, probably like most of the people reading this, I work in the same place where I enjoy time off. That separation is no longer really there. Thankfully, I can actually leave my work as soon as I turn off the work laptop but that still ends up changing the meaning of that workspace.

Also, meeting and interacting with other (especially new) humans is still quite difficult. Granted, I’ve always been introverted and annoyed with small talk, but COVID has made what little social interaction I had non-existent.

At any rate, this writing attempt is my way of trying to alleviate some of the pent-up stress I’ve been recently experiencing. It’s like I simultaneously want an audience to live through this with me and wouldn’t mind not having an audience — so that this blog basically acts like a message in a bottle traveling the oceans.